The struggles within...

So its been an interesting week or two back at work....

Frustrating... I'm really trying to be focused and trying to be productive at work, but I continue to run into a lot of road blocks. Besides the general physical issues of trying to focus on work while my knee hurts...

Understand that these are frustrations that have been building for months and maybe even years, these are not random or just the normal minimal bullshit that we all deal with on the day to day basis that all our jobs have. I think the month that I had off just gave me time to reflect and realize the issues that I have aren't just the normal daily crap we all deal with but major structural issues that effect the major structural pillars of my work environment...

I'm increasing becoming more frustrated with the lack of good business decisions made by my direct bosses...From one of them being completely checked out, to the other one being a completely self consumed, immature, and simply an idiot. I'm tired of seeing them keep chasing the same issues and complaining about the same results and doing nothing to change the way they attack the issues, yet somehow they are expecting different results. Sounds like the definition of insanity, even if I do say so myself...

Then there becomes the poor decisions made by their bosses...I happen to know both of them outside of work they are both great guys, however inside work you couldn't have two different men. One is a great guy and does everything he can to help resolve the issues he can; unfortunately he's the only one at that level that can seem to get anything done and he's so overrun he can't focus on the issues he needs to. I don't even want to go into the major issues with the other manager, I could dedicate and entire blog to this guy and I'd have probably 200 people that would love to donate material to a site...

So when you do the right thing and bring your concerns forward in a positive way with ideas for solutions you get looked at like your fast spreading form of Cancer.

It's so funny to see so many people who are supposed to people in the know and have the ability to make decisions, but are so afraid, I'm not sure afraid is the right word, they are just not willing to step up and make a decision and just want to keep things the status quo.

So here I am....

Its hard because I really care about what I do and I have high expectations for myself. I want to the best possible job possible; but I have to deal with the reality of the situations, and I know I'm not willing to comprise myself.

So as I see it have a few choices...
1) I can continue to fight and try to make a difference.
2) I can simply give up and just keep my head low and not bother to say anything...
3) Give them the Bird!

So which do I choose...