Tuesday, June 28, 2005
Relationships...
But I have to tell you that I'm thankful for each one that I have had...
Each one has taught me something and made me who I am today...
I'm a better person for the things that have happened to me and the experiences that I have...
I know it has not been easy or simple and things have never been black or white...
They have always been shades of grey...
I thankful for where I am today...
You know...I just might get it right this time...
Old Friends...
I've lost touch with a few since the divorce and have tried to reconnect with no luck...
Then I get a call at 7:40am...
Not a bad way to start the day...
Here's a toast to good friends!
Monday, June 27, 2005
Quote of the Day...
We all need something worthwhile to aim for. A dream provides us with that. It acts as a compass, telling us the direction we should travel.
Sunday, June 26, 2005
Baseball...
(Not that you really need my help...)
Arizona has manage to stay above 500 and are only 3.5 games in back of the Padres...
San Francisco has manage to lose 3 in a row and are currently 11 games back of the Padres...
Indians quietley have a very good season, at this rate I could win my $100 by August...
Not that I really expect to see my $100, but hey a bets a bet.
( I bet that the Indians would have a better record than the Giants by the end of the year, this bet was placed before Barry Bonds was injured list for life....)
Thank You..
Whether or not I should send a Thank You note...
and I know what your thinking....A thank you note for what?
Its simple...
A thank you note for leaving my life...
So what do you think? I look forward to your comments!
Wednesday, June 22, 2005
Quote of the Day!
Tuesday, June 21, 2005
So the Cats out of the bag!
It started about 3 weeks ago and is simply amazing...
For all my intentions I was sure I wasn't going to be in a new relationship for awhile...
What did I mean by awhile I don't know...but I certainly didn't mean for it to happen this quick...
Its been a long hard road over the last couple of years filled with a lot of ups and downs...
So by qualifications I had set the bar high for anyone I was going to date...
They had to be honest...and I just don't mean honest on the surface...I mean honest about everything in their life... (From doing self analysis, best I can tell you, is I made the biggest mistake in my past relationships by settling and not demanding that the people in my past relationships be 100% honest with me. It starts with little things and just kind of continues from there into a negative environment.) So this time I made sure that I laid down the ground rules...No matter how hard it is. I am an adult. I can handle the truth. No matter how hard it is I can deal with the truth as long as your honest.
So with that being said...
This just hit me and her from out of the blue...Wasn't expected...Wasn't planned...
Somewhere down that road it just hits us and it happened...
So what can I say...I've know here for more than 3 years and we've had a good friendship that has developed into something more...Maybe that's why this time its been so easy, so simple, and so honest....(It doesn't hurt that she's a New Yorker and doesn't pull punches...)
Its funny, we both have been looking for red flags and can't find any!!! Its really scary, we just seem to click. What's even better is that all the kids get along and we have no kids issues...I can remember in my last relationship the kid issues where the hardest. I had one simple rule...The rules are applied evenly across the board, but with my ex every kid had rules applied differently...Talk about not knowing if I was coming or going....Its nice to find someone that has the same philosophies and the same goals in mind when it comes to the kids...
So here I am traveling down the road of life again with someone other than myself...
And its amazing...no stress and we're just out to have a good time!
Tuesday, June 14, 2005
Supersize Me!
http://www.supersizeme.com/
If not you really should...its pretty shocking and real...
So reflecting on all the changes in my life that have recently gone through I asked a question..
Why not two more!
So about 45 days ago I stopped cold turkey...
I stopped drinking all soda - I was probably drinking at least a 12 pack of soda daily...
&
I stopped eating all fast food - Not that I have been eating a ton of it, but every little bit helps...
So the results...
In 45 days I have lost roughly 25-30 pounds...
I really hadn't done anything lately to see a benefit from all this weight loss, except I look healthier and I've had to go buy some new clothes...
But today I noticed the change...I was out riding my mountain bike at South Moutain and made every single hill climb with out stopping! It was incredible... I haven't been able to do that for 2 years maybe even 3 years...Usually I'm able to make most of the hills then walk the last part of the distance, but not today...I rode every inch of every hill on the bike. It was amazing...simply amazing...
Text Messaging at 2am...
So lets say we had some fun at 3am this weekend!
What a wonderful life...
Its been a busy few weeks for me...
I spent the weekend cruising the Southern California coast line and spent a majority of the time with one goal in mind...to relax and have fun...
I can tell you that I have acomplished both and a few more things along the way...
From hanging out in Universal City, to lying around the beach, to driving Pacific Coast Highway, and last but not least jetting across the Pacific Ocean at 55 knots at sunset...
It was truly a great weekend, but not just because of the things I've done...
I made a connection this weekend...
A connection that could better my future and finally be that missing link...
What a great weekend!
Monday, June 13, 2005
Sunday, June 12, 2005
Vacation discussion Topics...
The best one I think I've ever been in is Buffalo Billards in Washington, DC...
Just a great environment!
Check it out...
http://www.google.com/local?q=buffalo+billards&hl=en&lr=&sa=G&near=washington,+dc&rl=1&sc=1&radius=0&latlng=38895000,-77036667,1682935982949420795
Friday, June 10, 2005
Thursday, June 09, 2005
Cellphone Posting...
Yeah I know the keyboard sucks on the cell phone, but I like the feeling up just stopping and sending a quick thought or two...
And better yet...I can do it pictures too!
Wednesday, June 08, 2005
60 Days Out
For those of you who haven't been here since the begining...
This is Take Three of my adult life...
Through divorce and now my first major relationship after the divorce and break up things have always been interesting....
So the more time and distance I gain from the these events the more I realize the although I didn't always see the signs and lots of times I did... This is the best thing to happen to me...
As some say I guess it was the rebound relationship...
So I've righted the ship and headed out into the ocean...I know what I'm looking for and what I'm not looking for...
As my friends say lets setup you up on match.com profile... That is definately what I don't want...
What I do want is someone who has a child or children and looking to be honest and open in all aspects of their life...
Is this a lot to ask? Is this a high mark to set...
You better believe it and I think I'm worth it...
So I've started a voyage and I've set sail...and maybe just maybe I can do it right this time...
Answers to the Dilemmas...
So I've had some dilemmas...
Unfortunately the 18 year old has proved me right yet again...
So now on his own and thinking he's in the free and clear...
But what he doesn't realize is that he's on borrowed time...
For the path he walks has consequences...
Consequences that he's not ready to face...
Its only a matter of time...
Cell Phone Taxes
This article has some great information on the taxes...
Its was a great day in baseball...
Diamondbacks unfortunately lost the game in the top of the 9th...
Indians won in 11...
Dodgers lost...
Giants lost...
And I won't talk about the Evil Empire...(Lost 9 of 10)
:-)
Saturday, June 04, 2005
This can't be good news for Yankees Fans...
Its a shame...I don't know of any other coach out there that has done a better job over the last couple of years...
Its not Torre's fault that the Yankees keep buying players that are past their prime and can't get the job done....
A Good Saturday Morning...
Why is good when I should be in bed sleeping...Well its been a great couple of days...
I've been enjoying myself on the last day and half while I was off work and just had a great time...
And really...I didn't do much but hang around the house and do things so some things I haven't done since I was in college...
I hung out and watched the stars for hours...not that you can see nearly as many stars as used to be able to...They continue to build out in my area like there's no tomorrow...
I took a nap in the middle of the afternoon...
And then there was that one other thing...
Thursday, June 02, 2005
This was past onto me by email today...Thought it was worth a good read...
Mon, 26 Jan 2004 11:13AM - SENATOR JOHN GLENN ON THE SENATE FLOOR
Some people still don't understand why military personnel do what they do for a living. This exchange between Senators John Glenn and Senator Howard Metzenbaum is worth reading. Not only is it a pretty impressive impromptu speech, but it's also a good example of one man's explanation of why men and women in the armed services do what they do for a living. This IS a typical, though sad, example of what some who have never served think of the military.
Senator Metzenbaum (speaking to Senator Glenn): "How can you run for Senate when you've never held a real job?"
Senator Glenn (D-Ohio): "I served 23 years in the United States Marine Corps. I served through two wars. I flew 149 missions. My plane was hit by anti-aircraft fire on 12 different occasions. I was in the space program. It wasn't my checkbook, Howard; it was my life on the line. It was not a nine-to-five job, where I took time off to take the daily cash receipts to the bank." "I ask you to go with me ... as I went the other day...to a veteran's hospital and look those men ...with their mangled bodies... in the eye, and tell THEM they didn't hold a job!
You go with me to the Space Program at NASA and go, as I have gone, to the widows and Orphans of Ed White, Gus Grissom and Roger Chaffee...and you look those kids in the eye and tell them that their DADS didn't hold a job.
You go with me on Memorial Day and you stand in Arlington National Cemetery, where I have more friends buried than I'd like to remember, and you watch
those waving flags.
You stand there and you think about this nation and you tell ME that those people didn't have a job?
What about you?"
( For those who don't know...During W.W.II, Howard Metzenbaum was an attorney representing the Communist Party in the USA. Now he's a Senator! )
Wednesday, June 01, 2005
Baseball...
Just some current Stats...
The Diamondbacks are having a great season to date- 30 Wins 22 Loses
The Indians are about where everyone expected at 25 Wins 25 Loses
The Giants are currently trying to find themselves without Barry at 23 Wins 27 Loses
and the kicker of it all...
With a Payroll of 200 Million...
The Yankees are 4 games back and 4th place in the division at 27 Wins 24 Loses
You know George has to be real happy right about now...
Speaking of Theater Experiences...
7.1 Dobly Digital....
I can finally say there's really not a reason to go to the movie theater anymore...
There is one exception...If I'm going to see something in the DLP theater then I should be guarenteed a good experience...but there's always that people issue....
It funny Thomas is speaking about the poor experience he had in relatively new theater and during my shopping experience I ran into several other store reps that had similar views...
While I consider myself a movie lover...I now get to have the whole experience minus the annoying people...
Disappearing into thin air....Maybe not
People who say the just want to disappear, always leave traces to where to find them...
Its like they want to be found...but then they get so upset when you find them...
More Dilemmas...
She made me promise I would send it too her....So the dilemma if I do send the card, it leaves a door open...
I've spent the last two months trying to close the doors to my past and move forward...It seems like an easy decision....Tell my daughter I sent the card and just move foward...
But some where in me I just don't know what to do...
Maybe its human nature...maybe its stupidity...maybe I'm just asking to be handed a whole lot of heart ache...
I want to send the card...but I don't want to leave that door open. Moreover I don't think I can survive the results if someone comes walking in that open door...
Dilemmas...
A father who never took responsibility...
A mother who was never tough enough...
A someone who abondon him at his greatest time of need...
So here I was left with a fragile life in my hands and I stood at a crossroads....
Go left and turn my back and we have another member of the I-going-to-do-whatever-the-fuck-I-want-club-no-matter-who-or-how-it-hurts club...
or
Go right and wrap my arms around the situation and stand up and teach someone wants it means to be an adult or better yet a man...
So here is my dilemma....
I've done everything I can to do the right thing and try to set the right example...
To teach the lessons that should have been taught when he was age 6, 8, 10....
So now he's eighteen....He thinks he's a man...
He knows the difference between right and wrong, but consistently chooses wrong...
So I've done one of the tougher things I've ever done....
I had to sit down and have an intervention...
And give him a choice...
Go into the military and hope they can put him on the right path...
or
Send him into the world and let fate take it course...
So yet another crossroad....Do I hope he takes the right path...
I honestly do...but I know this child...I know him to well....
I just hope for the first time in my life he proves me wrong...
Long Weekend...
I haven't drank like this since I was last in Chicago...
Every night I was drinking 1,2,3,10....It was ridiculous and completely controlled....
And every night I drank to limit and stopped...
It was a great weekend...
I was rather productive in getting lots of stuff done around the house and with a little help I almost got the garage cleaned out....






