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Baseball Comebacks...

Even if you're not a baseball fan, you will still get a kick out it...

http://sports.espn.go.com/espn/page2/story?page=neel/050526

The moral of the story...besides humor

Just do what makes you a happy!

Summer is here...

For those of you that don't realize it....I do live in Arizona...

I love it...

But its official...Summer is here...

It never seems to fail...We will sit with the high in the 80's for a week maybe two....then we jump straight through the 90's to 100's...

I love it...

Just passing through...

You really have to make an effort to stop and smell the roses. We get so busy in this life....

Its been a busy weekend....

New roommates move in (Thank God...they are helping nicely in offsetting the expenses of the house)...

Busy weekend with the kids...Work is always a joy....

And last but not least the Suns' Game....Granite they lost but it was still a great game...

So now its Tuesday night and I finally I have a chance to stop and smell the roses...

My friends are trying to have me setup a profile on match.com

They thinks its time I get back into the game...I just laughed at them...

I really don't need a match.com profile just find someone....plus as much as I'm ready to move on...I'm not...

I'm enjoying where I'm at....yes I miss her, but I can't live in the past, I must keep going forward...

So where am I at...

I'm working on getting healthy and enjoying my time...

Whether it be time with the kids or just time alone....I'm enjoying the time...

I tend to reflect on the past and dream about the future...

So here I am...

Feet firmly planted on the ground and head stuck in the clouds...

Weekend..

Its been a fun weekend...Few days since the last post...

I've been busy with kids and work and haven't had much of chance to post...I'll be posting a rant and maybe a rave later today...

Till then...

I hope you all are doing well and find you path down that road of life...

TGIF...

I know its only Thursday...but its my Friday...

Its been a fun day...from Star Wars at 12:01am to 8 hours of work on less than 3 hours sleep...

To a great dinner with a family friend...

Its been a really fun day and the best part of the hole thing...

I haven't looked forward to falling a sleep in a very long time and I actually get to sleep in tomorrow....

Forgiveness...

Its sometimes the hardest thing to give...

D...I don't know why you did what you did at this point it doesn't really matter...

I just wanted to let you know...

I forgive you.

Star Wars...Episode III

Its the end of a saga....The end of a tradition...

For the last 11 years every single time Star Wars was shown in the theater we would go see the midnight show...At first the Cine Capri...Then the Harkins Theater that had the best sound system...

Its been a great tradition....

Now back to the movie...

It was great...It had great fight seens and plenty of action....it felt a little choppy at times...but over all I would rate it the best of the new films, without any doubt....

It was great to see the internal struggle of the fight we all have between the good and evil in all of us...It seems that internal struggles we all go through and that made the orginals such a big hit seem to get lost with all the special effects in Episode 1 &2.

Now time for bed....I have to be up in 3 hours...

Best Friends...

Are you tired of all those sissy "friendship" poems that always sound good, but never actually come close to reality? Well, here is a series of promises that really speaks to true friendship:

1. When you are sad, I will help you get drunk and plot revenge against the sorry bastard who made you sad.

2. When you are blue, I will try to dislodge whatever is choking you.

3. When you smile, I will know you finally got laid.

4. When you are scared, I will rag on you about it every chance I get.

5. When you are worried, I will tell you horrible stories about how much worse it could be & to quit whining.

6. When you are confused, I will use little words.

7. When you are sick, stay the hell away from me until you are well again. I don't want whatever you have.

8. When you fall, I will point and laugh at your clumsy ass.

This is my oath. I pledge it till the end. Why, you may ask? Because you are my "friend".

Send this to ten of your closest friends, then get depressed because you can only think of nine.

Remember: A good friend will help you move - - a really good friend will help you move a body.

Let me know if I ever need to bring a shovel.

The count down has begun...

Star Wars - Episode III

Tonight at Midnight...

30 Days Later...

So the bomb dropped 30 days ago today...

So how am I doing? I would say for the most part good, but there is always those times....A song on the radio...The pictures in the house...

It definately hasn't been easy...

My trust with woman has been shattered...

My morals have been tested...

And what propably hurt the most is the fact that I saw myself growing old with this person...Not just in the normal ways, but even in my dreams...I had a comfort that I have never had before...That this person would be there with me through thick and thin...

And in the end...

I have learned more about myself and am a better person, because this happened to me...

I am truly lucky...

I try to walk through life with a smile on my face and try to remember to enjoy my time...

When I'm older I hope that I will have ability to look a back and think about the adventures that I have had...whether they've been ups or downs; I know to this point in my life that I have truly enjoyed the adventure that is my life...

Its not always easy and I know its certainly not always sane, however I know its been a great ride...

I dont' know who said but its certainly something I hold true to my heart...

That which doesn't kill us, makes us stronger...

Times like these...

As the song goes....

Times like these you learn to live again...

I'm learning....

Back and in gear...

Its been a interesting weekend...

Had a great drive to Flagstaff on Friday...

On the way I stopped and played golf with my brother at Verde Sante Fe and for the first 9 holes I played the worst golf of my life....By third hole I stopped counting and switch to the only club I could hit straight...The Pitching Wedge...That's right the pitching wedge... Granite...I was hitting the pitching wedge exceptional well...Straight down the middle and about 150 yards...Its truly insane...On the other hand the guy I was playing with looked like my brother, he acted like my brother, but he certainly didn't hit the golf clubs like my brother... By the back 9 things were going well...I was playing almost par golf and my brother had returned to his old form...

Now to Flagstaff...

I pretty much let it all go once I got there...I remember most of the night...I do remember making El Jeffe pay the bar tab...

I remember the walk home...I remember praying to the porcelian god...

Overall it was a great night and a well earned break...

Saturday morning...

We jump in the truck and head to the starting point for the ride...
I'm still sicker than a dog and have no business being on bike...But hell I need this ride more than anything in the world...Not so much for the physical exercise, but more for the mental aspect of the ride...Whenever I've had troubles in my life and I needed to work through them I have always been able to jump on the bike and go for a ride and everything just seems to fall into place...

I haven't been able to ride since she's left...

I don't know why, but for the first time in my life I couldn't ride...I didn't understand; I just felt complete uncomfortable and uneasy on the bike...

So this trip was about one thing and only one thing....Forcing myself to get back on that bike and ride...It didn't matter that I was sicker than a dog and I couldn't eat anything...

So we jump on a trail and started riding...Up some good sizes hills ( have I mentioned how much I hate riding up hills) and then the fun begins....10 miles of some of the best down hill in Arizona...It was a hard ride for lots of various reasons...but in the end I found what I was searching for....

My love of riding...I was finally comfortable on the bike again....

So the weekend has been a success....

If I go to bed right now...

I can still get 3.5 hours of sleep...

Great Site...

This simply has to be one of the funniest sites I've seen in a while...

Give it a chance...

I'll be you'll find something to laugh about...

http://www.gapingvoid.com/

VH1 Mega Hits..

Anyone every listen to VH1 Mega Hits and think...

"I don't remember any of these fucking songs....How the hell was that a hit?"

Just wondering? I just never seem to find a song playing on that station that I remember being a hit...At least not a hit song in the United States...

Don't forget to look for the update at....

I forgot something...

Don't forget to look for the update on how golf went at suckatgolf.com

Granite I'm not a contributor...however my brother is and we'll be trying to hit some houses on Friday while we're at the golf course...

And don't forget....Tom and I are still the winners of the Don't Quit Your Day Job Trophy from the last golf tournament we entered....

Another bout with insomnia...

If you couldn't already tell....

I'm having another bout of insomnia...

Funny thing...this time its not caused by my mind racing at 150mph...

Its simply the ability to lack falling asleep...

What is body trying to tell me....

Its funny the things you do when you can't sleep...I've caught up on all my laundry...I've emailed some old friends...I even went over the weblogs...I even found myself watching the old music videos from the 80's and 90's on VH1 Classics...I must be really desperate....

(on a side note...Wanted to say hello to all of you who have stopped by from across the pond and abroad...not quite sure how you found the site, but then again the internet is a wonderful thing...)

Its almost 2:15am and I have to be up in less than 4 hours...lets see if I can get some sleep...

Hopefully Goodnight...

Its the little things that count...

I had the pleasure of going to my daughter's spring concert on Thursday evening...

Its always interesting watching a group of kids singing...

I would probably best break down into 3 groups...

The lookers...The followers...and The outspoken one....

The lookers spend most of the time looking around the room and looking at each other and singing about every 3rd word.

The followers are watching the teacher and always seem to be about 2 steps behind.

The outspoken one...There's always one in the group, you know the one...The one that sings louder than everyone else...The one that wants to grab the microphone and sing...The one that is generally pandering for the crowds attention.

Now the kids are always fun to watch but some times the parents are even funnier....

Time for a break..

So its time for me to take a much needed break...

Last time I went up north I came home to a empty house...that was almost thirty days ago...

So I'm hoping I have a little better luck this time....

Hopefully the house will still at least be there this time when I get home...

So what's on tap for the trip....

A little golfing...A lot of mountain bike riding...and a lot of alcohol...

Not all in that order....

So if I get a chance I'll up date the site over the weekend...

Otherwise it will be sometime on Sunday...

Breaks my heart...

With as strong as I have had to be....I lost it today..

My daugther has done very well with all the recent changes...

She loves D as her own mother and she completely lost it today...

I simply couldn't hold it together anymore and lost it...For well over an hour I simply sat there and held my daughter as she cried and we talked about D...

My daughter talks everyday about her...she misses her...she knows that D has run away and wants to know when she's coming back...

Today she realized, she's not coming back...

Weight off my shoulders...

Its been a long long time since I haven't had some type of weight on my shoulders...

From the divorce to the selling of my house....

Its been a long couple of years with a lot of stress involved...

Although my heart has been broken and I'm still dealing with this issue, I can truly say I'm finally starting to relax...

I wish with all my heart that I haven't lost the person that I have...

I can only go foward and try to move on and not live in the past...

With all my feelings and emotions that I have still pent up inside of my I'm finally starting to relax...

Is this a good thing or a bad thing...

Only time will tell...

If your interested in making your own copy...

http://www.geeksquad.com/absentee.asp

I can't wait...

May 19, 2005

Dear Employer,

Please excuse Sean Vincent from work on Thursday, May 19. He is not feeling well. Sean is at home in bed for the entire day, nursing what appears to be a serious dismemberment. Sean's illness is in no way, shape or form related to the premiere of the final installment of the greatest story ever, which, coincidentally, premieres on the same date.

While I cannot confirm nor deny that Sean has called my company, Geek Squad, asking to be set up with wireless access "in case of a day spent watching the final prequel over and over" know that if you do receive an e-mail from your prized employee today, it is most likely because He was wise enough to plan ahead in the event of illness.

But as I mentioned before, Sean is at home, safely in bed, but reachable (in dire emergencies) by e-mail or cell.

One more thing. Beginning at 8am, Sean Vincent will be unreachable for about two hours, thirteen minutes and eleven seconds. He will be feeling really bad at this time.

Move along,
Robert Stephens
Geek Squad - Chief Inspector

Travel...

It is one of my favorite things in the world to do...

At a drop of a hat...I would just go...

So why am I having such an issue going this time...

Why is it so hard to get back on this bicycle...

Why is it so hard to start these trips again...

Insomnia...

We all seem to get it at some point in our lives...

I guess this is my time....

I'm tired....My mind has been racing all day....

My thoughts vary a wide spectrum....but always fall back to her...

For the most part I do pretty good...Moving on....Going forward...

But there are times....times like these...My mind begins to wonder...

Searching for that missing heart beat...that missing smile...

To think was it all a lie?

Technology...

Some days you hate it...Some days you love it....

Today is one of the days I love it...

:-)

Mamma needs a new pair of shoes...

And damn it...

Mamma's going to get her new pair of shoes!!!

A comfortable place....

Its official...I have finally gotten the down stairs area straightened up and feeling comfortable...

I love the way it flows and they way it feels...

Now if I can only get me head on straight....

Religion...

Why is it that some of the most religious people in the world are some of worst...

They say they follow the good book, but it more like a guide, instead of a law...

I'll never understand it....

Mother's Day

Happy Mother's Day to all the Mother's out there...

Hope you have a relaxing day...

Support...

Its a wonderful thing...

All the family and friends that have supported me...

But in the end...

This is a journey I must walk alone...

Slowly I walk...Slowly I find my way...

There's been twists and turns...ups and downs...

I'll will make through this journey....

But more the question at hand...

Is what will I do when she turns up in the future...

Long Drive Home...

Its funny...

I feel like I doing fine and things are moving on....

Then I have long drive home...You would think it would be a long drive to work but not really. I've been doing what I do for a long time and I have a pretty set routine on my may to work to make sure I'm ready once I'm there. My job requires a lot of focus...If I can't focus I don't make any money...Its hard to explain unless you have done what I do...That being said my rides to work are generally pretty easy do to my set routine....

Driving home is another story...

Its probably the hardest part of the day...I find constant reminders from songs on the radio, to the lack of stops on the way home. I miss my conversation with her, I miss my arguements with her, I miss stopping to pick up something she needs on my way home, and most of all I miss walking into the house and see that smiling face...

I once learned long ago a saying I hold true in my heart...

If you truely love someone set them free...If it was meant to be they'll come back...If not you have simply proven you really truelly love them...


So here I am proving my love....

Congratulations are in Order..

Budder...

I'm proud that you continue to work hard and it finally seems that hard work is starting to pay off. Keep up the good work!

Honesty

Such a simple concept....So why is it so hard to follow through...

I once made a promise to someone to always tell the truth. It was the best thing in the world...On so many levels it opens you up to show who you really are....

I guess that's why so many people find it hard to do....People aren't comfortable with who they are, so they can't just be honest with themselves and if they can't be honest with themselves; how can they be honest with anyone else....

Rolling...

Its been an interesting few days...seems like I'm starting to pick up speed...

Finally feels like I have some closure in some areas of my life and like I'm starting to move on...

But I still feel that void...The missing love...

Good over Evil

Well end of the 3 game series and the Diamondbacks beat the Giants 2 out of 3 times...

I'll take that anyday of the week...

So I guess this time around...it was Good over Evil....

On a lighter note...

Diamondbacks over the Giants last night, it was a great game.

Good luck to my brother today....

Funny Thing....

I was doing some thinking...( I know dangerous subject for me...)

It seems that people who choose to move on at a drop of a hat never really just disappear...There's always something that makes them keep an eye on there old life from outside world...

I don't know why I believe this, I just do...

I think the brain just won't drop it, I think somewhere in the back of the head, there's always that thought, that concern about what's going on in my old world...

Lost in the dark...

Its dark....Still wondering lost in the dark...

I'm trying to move forward but still lost in the dark...

Trying to find my way, but feel like I'm about to walk off the cliff...

So I concentrate on what matters in my life, what's most important in my life...

And pray I find my way...

Songs...

Music....

Its an amazing thing...reminds of where you are, where you've been, and sometimes where you're going...

The hard part...Music that makes you remember people, places, and things....

Evil Conquers Good....At least for one night...

MLB:
San Francisco 9
Arizona 8

In 10 innings...

A fork in the road...

So a friend needs some help...

So of course I'm willing to do anything to help out a friend...

However doing so, requires me to close a door to my past and forces me to move on...

I know its the right thing to do....

So why is it so hard to close that door...

Yankees

You have to love that we are more than a month into the baseball season and the Yankees are 8 games back....

http://sports.espn.go.com/mlb/standings?type=reg&br=5&year=2005&column=gamesBehind&order=false&st=2


And lets see if Good can conquer Evil this week...

Diamondbacks vs Giants in San Fran for a 3 games series...

Since you've been gone....

So its been two weeks since you've left....Have you found what your looking for...Have you found yourself...Is it everything you've been wanting...No responsibilty...No hard decision...No work...

Has the cost you'd paid been too high...

 

Only time will tell....
 

My schedule...

I've found a cool new company making a great calendar system...

http://www.trumba.com

If you need to find me you can always look up my schedule...

http://www.trumba.com/calendars/vincentzoo

So what is the next step...

Its funny...I read the post and was thinking...I am ready for the next step...

So what the hell is the next step?

Ready for the next step...

Spent some time talking with a friend tonight....Rather interesting hearing the same perspective on parenting and the fact as a parent you have to choose the better good for your children over your selfish personal interests....

Just helps reinforce the basics...

Weekend..

This weekend has certainly not been boring...

I spent Friday night drinking...I spent 4 hours of Saturday morning with my daughter at the Doctor's office...Had a great time hanging out with my Brother and friends Saturday afternoon...

And then my work week started today at 8am....but hey the new work schedule starts next week. Thats something to look forward to....

Run Away...

We've all had thoughts at one time or another about just dropping everything in our lives and starting a new...

Just recreating ourselves and not having anything to do with anyone or anything from that point in our lives...

But I can't even believe how someone can just walk away....

Being a parent is an inherient responsibilty to no matter what your feeling are....Taking the higher ground and always looking back to say is this whats best for the kids? Then deal with the opinions and emotions you feel. Its not easy....So much of my life I've wanted to do other things, but have do something else because is was the right thing for my children...

I just don't understand how someone can get and walk out that door and turn their backs on the kids....