Take Three...

So after finally getting the love of my life and phone and from the previous email. She's gone....

Just like that....

Its been a heart wreching 3 days. I've slept a total of 6 hours and I wonder were do I start again? The other kids father and I have sat down and talked and will keep some open lines of communications. He understands that I have love for his kids as if they were my own and I will be able to continue to see them.

But its not that simple....on the cold black and white background of typing is just seems to come out. My hope for this blog is simply to vent and try to go forward. At this way I don't know which way is up, down, left, or right. I'm going to do the only thing I can do...Pick a direction and start walking the road of life...

Its very hard, I've lost the love of my life and she's taken something from me that I don't know if I will ever get back. She's taken my heart and soul...I've lost complete faith and was blind sided. The worst part is everytime I try to go with the flow and try to pick up the pieces try to move on.....I can't. I love her to much, her beings fills my heart a moment doesn't go by that I can't think of her. She is such a positive influence in my life and she's gone. I don't have any bad memories with her....Everytime I think of her it just makes me smile.

So here it is Take Three, Act1 - and it begins....